Do you SMILE today ?

      I once read from an article ,stated that 'a SMILE can change your LIFE'.

I wasn't really looking into it ,as I thought it was ridiculous .Smile? I don't smile! Why should I smile to strangers? 

But as time flies ,I grow up ,entering college and staying far from home (not really far just 2hr journey^^) .I start to realize a SMILE really matters a lot . 

     Try to imagine ,when you are in a totally new environment ,which you don't know anybody ,you must be very nervous .(ok at least ME hehe) And at that time,if people smile at you ,even just a little (or maybe he or she doesn't smile exactly at you ,but to others><) ,you still have the better feeling of secure .For me,when a stranger smiles at me ,I feel like sleeping on a bed of roses,and this makes my day ! 

      I take rapid a lot .I meet different kinds of people up thre.What makes me happy is when I ask the driver what number of the rapid should I take bla bla,the driver will kindly reply me with a warm smile...owww it's really sweet ! I once met a driver who even smiled and waved goodbye to me after he closed the door when I was waiting for the other rapid .Sincerely ,it really makes my day .

 

    Somehow people might think,eww you met a queer uncle! The truth is ,this world has gotten worse ,crimes occur everyday .you don't know when is your TURN ,And this is why when strangers are trying to smile and talk to us,we will shock and run away .This is PATHETIC . A smile or a 'hi' should be pure and warm like morning sun ,but they are being distorted now .

      Anyway,I try to smile to all people that I meet everyday .Its good when people smile back :) .So I hope you don't freak out when I smile at you .I am not a pervert haha . 

Taken from Facebook--->

Perfect score

I always long for PERFECT 

I always COMPARE 

I always think that I am a LOSER 

This is WHO I AM 

I always think that my life is a MESS,like I can't do my studies really very very well ,I can't have the body figure that I myself adore ,I can't really do well in a lot of things ...bla bla bla .

I over think ,a lot ,and that makes the unconfident and insecure me .

But Everything happens for a reason ... When I was a kid ,I couldn't say I matured totally but I did know the reality of this world .i mean some of them .People somehow just look at the better stuff .the other one wic is considered or categorized as good stuff,they do look at it ,but just for a moment .They still choose the better one .

And yeah ,people judge by looks .i don't mean all but mostly .when we first meet a person ,people who is good looking leaves a better impression to us .that is so true n so normal .so ,mostly all judge by looks then only by personality .

This is very normal .This happens all the time .You might say I always compare and I don cherish what I have ,but do you know people compared me with the other one since we were just kids ? And they did not choose me ,they chosed those better ,and that made me realize ,I MUST BE STRONG .I DONT WANT PEOPLE TO LOOK DOWN ON ME I WNT PEOPLE TO LIKE ME .

So over the 10 years ,I chosed to become like who I am now .i wasn't really happy .i always compared .I always gt envy when people were better than me because I was so scared ,I was afraid that people might leave me when they found out that I was not talented .

I don't blame anyone .Because its like the natural phenomena .We want better quality stuffs,even pets .Right ? But keep that in mind ,your choice over the better things might make the people who is not chosen to feel he or she is totally loser .That is why nowadays there are so many cases of suicide.

We say that those who suicide are too stupid and crazy and they DONT KNOW ABOUT LIFE YET .But you are not them ,you don't experience what they experience .You don't really understand .Things are always easy to say than doing them .So ,what I want to emphasize is that they might be wrong to suicide ,but somehow ...the reality forces them to ... 

There was a time I really wanted to choose that path too .i was really lost .I M NO KIDDING .My mind just went out of control and I just couldn't stop thinking that this world was against me all the time .i thought of thousands of ways to die .Die then I would be free from all those stupid comments n bla bla .

So you think I m crazy n stupid and I think too much huh ? That's what my friends always say bout me .But please ,you don't know the fucking things I hv ever experienced .you can bear it but it doesn't mean I can too .

But then I was thinking ,if I die ,then how bout my family n friends ? Will they sad ? Yes they will .and when I was in that bad condition I was so touched because there were actually my REALLY BEST FRIENDS to support me .They did not blame me for over thinking .But they did always text me and be with me always they were studying in other places .So I managed to get out from th shit . 

We ,who are considered as good other than the better quality ,what we want is just SINCERITY .FRIENDSHIP.And still SINCERITY .

Maybe ,I have to take the responsibitllity too .i care too much compare too much think too much . But it's impossible for me to be a really really cheerful person with no negative thinking because I m human .Humans are complicated . 

I m really happy I have all my friends with me ,those who really care about me and be with me all the time .Yes I need friendship because for me,family and friendship are the most important .They help me to be a better person .Yes ,I mean it .I am so thankful . 

And last night ,I suddenly realized that THERE IS ACTUALLY NO PERFECT SCORES no matter in what .Everything u think is perfect ,there is still some bad parts but the good parts shade your sight and u don't notice it .So what is bothering me all the time ? It's me myself who make myself sound so pity .Guess I will just let everything to be natural .things that aredestined to happen wil happen eventually . 

The reason I blog this is just to share it .If you don't like it ,just leave .ok ? 

Life update part 2

Hi ,I know I have promised to blog about LIFE UPDATE PART 2 but I was just too lazy haha . 

Here I am going to talk about the FIRST experience I have ever had !!!! I PLAYED WITH A DOGGIE !!! 

I have phobia of all kinds of animals .even the cutest RABBIT .So don't expect me to have a MINION as pet even those minions do exist .i don't know why ,I just can't touch them .i feel like I am going to break them anytime .weird huh but this is so me .i still remember last time my brother raised a hamster .He named it ' Betty '. Everyday I watched him playing with Betty and let her to run around his laps.Believe it or not ,Betty was the weapon my brother used to threat me whenever I did not want to fulfill his wishes ! So Everytime I just ran to my ah ma n screamed for help .It might sound too ridiculous but I really couldn't stand with the furry little thing to go near me .i felt so geli and Betty was so so tiny .i was afraid that one day I might sit on her and she would just die like that .Oh shit even now I m still ' mo gun Chang ' haha . 

   Pet lovers, I m so sorry but try to understand me haha .Dont hate me I don't want to be like neither .

But ,there is actually MIRACLE! Yeahhhhhh....I hold a doggie of my friend ,Tyana and we took pictures ! I even played with him haha .For me ,its really unbelievable .I mean ,I had been having phobia of pets for nearly 18 years but recently I JUST BREAK THE WEIRD PHOBIA & HOLD THE DOG ! 

Ok here's the story . 

That day I went to Ipoh as what I had stated in my part 1 . When we reached her house,I immediately ran to staircase trying to avoid the doggie .i felt so lucky that Tyana 's mom dint actually allow tuffy to go upstairs .After we unpacked our things ,we went down to watch tv .Then Tuffy started to ran towards my way and try to jump up the sofa to reach me .OMG I really freaked out that time .Tuffy really very cute but look at his teeth .I was just scared that he might bite me or anything haha .Luckily Tyana took him away but he still loved to run to me when Tyana let him go .LOL . 

And second day at her house ,before we went out for breakfast at Poh Sam ,her mom asked me n Tyana to hold the dog and take pictures in garden .I was telling her that PLS HOLD TUFFY TIGHT I M SCARED!! After a few shots ,her mom actually handed Tuffy to me ! To me ! And I also maybe kisiao that time so I just tried to hold it .

You know,I could really feel Tuffy 's bones and I really had the thinking to let him go just like that .But then I realized his heart was beating .JUst like HUMAN ! I sound so stupid I know .Dog is living thing of course Tuffy 's heart is beating lol .But the feeling was like you had been locked inside a dark room for such a long time and suddenly the door opened and the morning sky was so beautiful ..that kind of feeling was somehow mixed with fear,thrill and joy because finally you felt something you had never felt before .

So ,I braved myself and let Tyana 's mother to take pictures of us .I still look not natural in picture but I was so overjoyed that I finally knew what kind of feeling was that to hold a dog .And since then ,I made some progressions more .When we in the house ,tuffy was running here and there .He tried to jump up my feet and use his teeth to somehow bite me (.tuffy is 3- month baby so he probably just likes to bite whatever things haha . ) At first I still felt geli and uncomfortable but slowly I just let it hopped around me ,licking my toe nails and playing on my lap haha .But I still couldn't really hold him up and kiss him .I still Couldn't .

I have to admit ,after 2-3 days spending time with tuffy ,I am no more the previous chicken - hearted joey :D The fact is I  actually FALL IN LOVE with tuffy .alright ,I miss him right now ! I really mean it. What Tyana said probably correct ,EVERYONE LOVES HER DOG ! 

Tyana ,me n Tuffy  :)) 

Part 1 life update

Hey people .Whats up ? 

It's the second week since my A level Sem 2 started.Time flies .Now I have been in IICP for nearly 4 months .Hmm,I met amazing people here ,mostly girls ,though.haha .People askme whether I have met any HOT guys ? Um .No ? I not really know .College life is not like secondary school life .We don't really mix together .I mean ,we have different subjects so its kinda hard for all the guys and girls to mix together and talk .So ,I very very miss my male dudes .oh yeah my emo Thyng n banana n of course my neh Neh :)) 

Still ,every night I have to think about what should I wear for the following day .Guys,I know what you will think again .Yeah ,but I like fashion .I don't like to go out just with simple t n shorts .I love FRESH stuffs .I just love mix n pair the clothes .DONT judge me .I am not that kind of rich girl who can buy anything I want .Somehow there was one guy who misunderstood .He thought i rich but seriously I M NOT RICH .I do buy some branded stuffs but I know the limits .I just buy the stuffs I really really need .Ok ,I actually can't control myself when I shop .So ,DO NOT let me bring more than rm300! So ,I wonder who likes secondary school uniform better than what we are wearing to college now ? Tell me tell me :)) 

Proceed to Ipoh trip n 饥饿三十camp . 

PART 1 

Yeah I went to Ipoh last week with my coursemate ,Tyana Lee !!! I probably spent all the time eating there because there is TOO MUCH GREAT FOOD there .people who know me know that I m always eating healthily and avoiding oily food etc but I really ,really couldn't control myself .i really relished the time there .It was really fun to stay with tyana's family .They are so lovely n her mom actually very nice to me .She even paid for the stuffs we had bought .Thank you aunt n sorry I let you pay :) We went to Foh Sam to have dim sum .Um ,the food was quite ok .But the comments i heard from some of Instagramers are the dim sum there actually sucks .I don't know .But it was so crowded that day .Probably everyday .

My friend ,Tyana 

Our next stop was COFFEE AT 91 .Omg if you come to Ipoh you MUST go to this place ! This place is so so so adorable .Bur its kinda hard to find because its situated just beside the Tambun INN hotel which people might not easily see it.Well ,we 2 actually prepared to spend quite a lot of money on this round but it turned out ...so damn cheap ! We ordered the tiramisu in small bottles ,the mango delight and 2 cakes .Each of them just costed rm4.90++ .And the coffe we ordered just rm6.90 .The most important is ,They tasted just PERFECT ! I love tiramisu the most .Tiramisu is all over but it don't taste  too creamy .At the bottom there is some cookie-like chocolate .Oh ...it's heaven ! HEAVEN ! We ordered macaroons .2 for rm 3! So economy right ? People always tell me that macaroons taste too sweet but the macaroons there are so good .i really don't know how to further describe but if you try it ,you will know it . Oh yeah ,this shop has FB page .You may check it out .They change their menu every month so don't worry that you will getting bored of trying the same dessert :)  

Want part 2? 

Holidays ~~

I have to say ,I am so damn regret .

Having 3-week-holidays ,but I wasted it by doing nothing .NOTHING ! Actually I do plan to make a lot of stuffs .I planned to decorate my room ,planned to finish my storybooks ,planned to maintain my WEIGHT but what the F*** I had done .

Well ,I did do some good things .i got to hang out with my friends .And it was memorable .We went to our secondary school (Keat Hwa ) .i think 5 of us .yeah .Looking at those juniors ,I felt like "woah , we were like that too ! " 

Yup .We were like that too ,wearing the used-to-be-ugly uniform ,ponteng-ing around the school compound ,and finding excuse to get out of the class when we were having subjects that very sien .Haha .I still remembered ,everytime when we had whatever competition we needed to discuss during school hours .So I was indeed very siok that time because I dint have to bring the super heavy books but just a laptop to school .We discussed bout our topics in computer room with air conditioner .Guess what we did there ? Despite the debate discussion ,we slept there,played there,talked there .Too many memories which I can't say all of them out right here .If my teacher saw this ,she would kill me ! Aha! 

My form 5 class was the noisiest class among all .LOL.I have to admit that .But it was also the best class among all .BEST  doesn't mean we get the best result but the bonding that had formed in 2 or more years .

 

I couldn't imagine how boring my life would be if I were not arranged inti that class .We did a lot of things together .Really a lot .Teachers hate us because we couldn't stop our mouths even they shouted like Siao Lang and that's why we always kena .Can you imagine how the situation was when many of us ,mostly boys ,were standing on the field with one girl ? It jus like the scene in 那些年我们一起追的女孩.haha .

Well ,some teachers forget me already .LOL .my maths teacher asked me ," you sure you in my class before ?" Walao sir ,I din do your homework d lo you really forget me already ah ? That time you still scolded me gok lo .But sir don worry ,I won't forget you because ...alright ,you know I know everyone knows .The funniest one was my biology teacher .We talked a lot .She was so cool n funny .But she hates us a lot .We too noisy during her class.But miss,we like you the most lohhhhh :) 

Oh yeah .i went to sing K with my girls too .we were like Siao Po ,dancing n jumping around .we sang with our favourite ONE DIRECTION ! Now I still so excited n high whenever I think about you guys haha .BUt we did a wrong choice .3 hours definitely so wrong to sing K .Plus we chosed all 'high' songs at first so I was so exhausted after 1 hour .Seriously I was like,pls,can we go now ? Sipek tired n I no voice Already! But my little chick still sang with her AMAZING voice .she din look tired ,but I was.I m Old,I admit .one thing,OAOA by 五月天is the 象征曲for our K 歌 day .I don't know why ,but I just like it .

Shit.i gain weight .And you guys totally will say " oh my god! Are you joey !? Why so fat ?!" Sorry .i also regret now .Tell me how ! How ?! TT 

Alright ,I dint touch any book .holy shit .i should but I dint .Can you kill me ? I m so damn lazy . 

So ,I m lazy now .Bye . 

I m coming home: A level

TGIF .yeah it's Friday again .i m now in my bus,heading to alor star .Finally the suffer school days  are over again .N I m going to have my BED soon ! 

I have to say,April intake for A -levels really so rush and tired .If you plan to choose April intake ,you may have to think carefully .Ok ,let me analyse for you .

A-level is split into AS &  A2 .You may have several small tests ,then sem 1 exam ,then mock exam (kinda like trial ) n finally AS exam before you enjoy the long holidays .The next year you wil have to continue your A2 syllabus then of course your A-level exam .My college (INTI International College Penang has this.I not sure bout other colleges) 

Here are some disadvantages and advantages of Jan/April/July intake I have figured out .Perhaps it may help you .

Jan intake -Well ,you have 18months (or shorter).ADVANTAGES : the time for your classes will be well organized ,which means you have plenty of time to study .But I heard my friends who are Jan intake saying that Jan intake is actually quite rush as well .The lecturers will start to teach A2 syllabus because they afraid that the A2 syllabus can't be completed.

DISADVNTGES: holidays after SPM too short XD .Just joking .i mean ,some of you guys might have to take license classes n exams,and maybe we want to have more time to do our personal stuffs .And some go to NS as well .So ,if you choose Jan intake ,you might as well sacrifice your holidays .

APRIL intake -you have 15months(or shorter) .ADVANTAGES: for those who wish not to waste their time and hope to complete A level ASAP can choose this .As what I know ,some universities around the world start their courses around August (I m not so sure,you have to check it yourself .Do go to the universities ' website and have a look ).So if April intake ,means we will finish our A-level on April next year .So ,we don't have to waste our time to wait for the next intake for certain universities .

DISADVANTAGES: the classes sure will be very very rush ( I m so dying now TT) .If you choose 3 subjects ,then maybe you still can rest more.But if you choose 4 subjects,you really need to have a strong body haha .I am not joking but really very tired .Your classes may start from early 8am -6pm (break is included) .Ya ,at first I really cannot tahan and really want to cry you know ?! Plus la,I don't have a very smart brain XD so hard lo .TT but now I m ok with it already .So ,just wanna remind you ,if you choose April intake ,its definitely tougher but don't give up .

MAY intake -20 months (in inti nilai ) JULY intake -18 months 

ADVANTAGES: the classes are not packed .You can have a lot of time to get used to your course.The lecturers maybe can focus more on you . 

DISADVANTAGES: you will waste almost 1 year time to get into certain universities if they only have intakes around August .and the bad thing is,THose BURSARY students ,mostly will go to July intake .So  maybe ,I mean maybe you will be very stressed .But actually you will be stressed no matter which intakes . So ,just take it easy . 

Well ,Do think carefully and the best to have a call or talk to head of programme of A level .Remember,it's head of programme because they know the A-level course the most ,more than the college counsellors . 

 All the best :) 

You raise me up

Today is Mother's Day .Its a big day for all mothers.Yeah ,I love my mom .We all do .

My mom is a typical mother :loves to nag,worries a lot ...bla bla.Chinese says,天下的妈妈都是一样的which means all mothers are same .Agree? Haha .They are somehow connected ,I mean they are protective .But for us ,we might think that they shouldn't be so but actually ,they are always correct (not always,but...most time ^^) 

When I was little,I always hoped to grow up faster so that I can get out from da house and live my life.Freedom .Oh yeah we all dreamed so right? I hated my mom when I was little.She was so mean to me.I mean,I was just a child ,but she liked to force me to do things I hate .She scolded me often n she forced me to study until midnight when I was just in kindergarten .Walao ,I was so sleepy but I couldn't even shift my eyes from books.pity me.And when I went to art class,I always cried because the teacher was scary (sorry mrs foo.i love u la ) I always end up being scolded by the teacher ...TT then I told my mom " I dwn to go anymore." But ...no matter how hard I cried ,I still needed to go .

   

I guess I told you guys before .My mom tore my maths paper into pieces when I was in standard 2/3 because I got 60 marks .Even now when I think of it ,I still feel that my mom so so so so bloodcurdling .I glued them up one by one ,crying with cane marks all over my arms .But from that time on ,I never ever got 80 marks below .i mean until form 3 la.When I got to form 4,I needed to face add maths .In th first exam ,I was totally in a blackout n I don't even know a single question.i went into the car n couldn't hold mytears.i thought my mom would scold me badly but she ended up telling me," Don't force yourself .You must try it slowly .Dont give yourself so much pressure.Try other time ." Yeah ,that's my mom .She treated me strictly when I was small but eventually let me grow up myself .i m so grateful to her .

 

I love my mom .Because of her ,I know I must be independent .She taught me to be.Last time I was counted as top student in my school.i always got no 1/2 in form .But then in f3,I don't know why ,my result dropped sharply till ranking 10/20++ which I forgot .I know it was just a small matter but for me,I mean the previous joey ,that time was suffering .tTeachers talked bout me in office,Friends discussed bout me al the way .I hate being discussed by people wtf.Mommy was the one who encouraged me ,n she told me " try your best" and now it becomes my inspiration everytime I do something.

My mom supports me in whatever things i do .when I went for debate competition ,I always not in the class n somehow it affected my results .But she said "I believe that u can do it.just go ." Thanks mom .i really grateful that you were by my side that time .And I managed to cover up my studies n at the same time enjoyed my secondary school life .

I still remember last time I used to curse my mom .i was bad ,I know.I made her cry yet I still dint want to apologize .I used to text her n scolded her ,asked her why treat me like that ,why other people' mommy so gud but she so mean .I m sorry mom .Now I really know I was so so wrong .Forgive me .Few months ago when we two had a heart-to-heart talk ,she told me the reasons why she so strict to me.she said," you are a girl .so I must train you to be independent .train you to be strong so that you can take care of yourself and the family when yr daddy n I not around.i planned it since I pregnant ,to train you .but you must know,I love u ." ...N I cried ,in my room after I went bac .

Now ,I m studying in Penang ,leaving my family behind .and I finally get what my mom means .Independent when there is no one for me to rely on .I finally know how much I love my family n how much I miss home .

Thank you mom.i love you . 

first day at IICP

     If you ask me about how was my first day at IICP ,i would have said ,it had nothing special yet i  felt so pressure .

     I mean,i dint really feel nervous or scared this morning although it was my first time for my college life .I guess Maybe because i had my housemate with me and i always quite brave when there is someone to accompany me .i hate to be alone when everything is at first time.I bet all of you feel so .When it is your first time at school or at any situation or occasion which  you dont know anybody ,woah its soooooo scary !And i dont know why ,since little ,i always did siasui things when it came to be my very first time .ETC.couldnt speak fluently in whatever language especially english ><....lol.I really hated myself at that moment .i felt so inferior and wanted to cry !But when things go on better and better ,i like to be alone again .i mean sometimes la .lol .very weird i know but somehow i enjoy th time because i can do many things in spite of staying in a group .

      I can still remember the first time i stepped into every single tuition class ,i felt everyone's eyes were on me .i know they were not looking at me but i just ...And my sight just went blur totally .i couldnt even find my friend although she was maybe,um maybe just sitting  a stone throw away.Ridiculour right ?i was so scared and timid ,i dont know why .I know its very different from the image i showed on stage when i was the emcee of an event or when i was a debator .i know its way too funny but i want to say,stage gives me the courage and mike gives me the power to stand out and SPEAK!

      Ok now my previous life is over and now I am starting afresh in IICP .Being one of the freshmen ,i can tell you ,i am NOTHING here.I mean everyone is excellent !plus there are many pro-ka from top schools around Penang like Penang Chinese Girls' Private High School 槟城槟华女子独立中学,Chung Ling (Private) High School, Penang 钟灵独立中学,and of couse many else .I　wasnt a top student in my previous school ,so can you imagine being in college?HAHA .MAybe in IICP its just counted as minor part .In KL or other states or maybe other countries ....WOAH .I am not  emo ,just i am telling you guys the fact .What i want to emphasize is that its very important for all of us to keep fighting even we are now over the stupid SPM .If you are a top student in your school ,still ,dont be over confident .Keep working on what you should do .BE humble but at the same time dont lose confidence when you see so many people better than you .Everything is possible .MAybe you will be the next to SHINE.who knows,right?So ,just try our best .BUt at first ,if you dont have gifted IQ like some people,then better dont be LAZY.Seriously,DONT.Of course i am not asking you to study all day and all night like kisiao but try to adjust study and leisure time .STEADY LA!(taken from AH BOYS TO MEN 1&2)haha.

     About the classes ...ok ,i have to say ,its really packed .i have classes from 8-4 or 5 or 6 pm almost everyday .I dont know i can tahan or not but there is no turning back so the only choice left now is to KEEP FIGHTING lol.Studying in college  is not like studying in secondary school.Like me ,its very lucky that i now studying in Penang .I can go home on friday and saturday .But still its not so convenient because home is the best place for me to really focus on my studies and also to rest .But i do understand i have to face the life challenges alone so i have to grow up and leave home!I am not the mummy-girl ok?haha .Seriuosly ,parents ,you have to teach your children to be independent since they are little .Or not if they end up like mummy-girls or mummy-boys,oh gosh its soo annoying .Please la ,grow up !

       And after going moldy at home for several months ,ahahaha i feel so sorry to all teachers especially ah kang and ah yong because i have 80% forgotten the formulaes bla bla taught by you all .I am such a 'beh ki' student right?just joking .I know many of you also throw the books ah notes ah as well as your brains away already .i am very confirm .oh damn ,i remember i have to do malaysian studies .what a bullshit subject .SEJARAH again what the hell .

         Ok i know i am talking too much .HAve to continue my homework and later must try to find some info for my juniors .They are having debate comp again.God bless al of us !

       DOnt give up ya .love .

After SPM

After finishing my secondary school ,I was stuck in my house n I did nothing .i did enjoy the lifeless life but somehow also felt very sien after repeating the wakeup-tv-eat-sleep life for a few months lol .its th typical Malaysian style -- complain bout everything haha .complained secondary school which had tuition all day n all night ,complained bout the si Lang exam ...but now when we are free from all of that ,we complain again .complain bout being too SIEN (boring ) .LOL .
Ya.SPM result was finally out .how many of you couldn't sleep the night before? Many of my friends complained on twitter that they only slept for 4 hrs.dude ,4 hrs are way too much for me haha .i don't know why ,I just can't sleep at night (everyday) .its irritating you know .and I feel HUNGRY haha .back to the main topic ,the SPM result makes people sick ,emo ...yeah .THe shit result took th smile from my friends .Damn it !
I guess I m at the side of unlucky n lucky .i gt 8A+ n 3A .lucky is I achieved my goal which I managed to get straight A's n at least 8A+ .unlucky is ,if I gt 9A+ /straight A+ there will be more benefits to apply some scholarships .LOL .Many of us are not satisfied with the result .yeah I know ,everyone has own goal .but somehow ,when we complain bout the shit result ,take a look at others .some people might happy til kisiao if they got result like you guys did (which you think not perfect enough) .people never get contented .Alright I admit I m one of them too.always not satisfy . (not for SPM )
Time to start a new life ?
Yeah .its the time .The time to get out of house and taste th bittersweet of life .N get into the college . I registered in INTI international college penang last Friday .i m going for A levels .i always reminded myself not to take science subjects again because those SC like to shoot n kill people .but still ,I ended up taking them .bio ,Che ,Eco n math -.- APril intake is packed n rush and yet I m taking these 4 sub ..I not really know I can cope with the studies or not since I am not as smart as others .But ,nNEVER GIVE UP is the way I live my life .i think if really really vy hard ,I would definitely cry secretly (haha) .its the way I express my feeling ok ? But then ,after crying i will get up and FIGHT again .
Aiya ,you know what I experienced the most over th past few years ? Failure (I think so ) .So it's not a big deal la.just keep fighting lo .lose also fight la .fight til the result is better lo .never give up is my only weapon since I do not have gifted brain haha .Seriously ,if want to get scholarship ,good result is very important .poppi la .i will work hard d.i want to go overseas .i need scholarship .But ,good result FIRST .
Leaving Alor Star soon .Next week ,1 April 2013 ,I will be starting my college life .God Bless I can cope with everything .P.S I have to do laundry myself .TT

Everyone ,never give up ! Love

FOOD journey

Friday .Its a FOOD FINDING day .

Many people know i am on diet .Yeah i eat very little .But they always misunderstand what my ON DIEt means.i still eat ,anyway .Just ,I eat healthier food .But still i will have 1 day in 1 week which i allow myself to eat scrumptious food perhaps?haha.

yeah its FRIDAY! I usually go out with family and we go around Alor Star to find nice food .Sometimes we will go to other states like Penang .As you know ,Penang is the state which has most food for us to explore .WEll,but i still will control the amount of food i take in .But its not because i scare i will fat but my stomach storage becomes smaller after I control my diet for years .

日本章鱼烧^^ yummy

I love japanese food especially food in KAEDE .

tuna fish

japanese style curry chicken rice .my brother' favourite <3 td="td">

On 11 january 2013 we went to KAEDE to lunch .KAEDE has always been my family and friends' favourite.they sell yummy food there and the choices are many .But i usually order the same food when i got there haha .there are many japanese food outside there in other states too but i still love KAEDE the most .I dont know why ,just feel like being HOME perhaps .^^

the restaurant is not big but its comfortable

the menu outside the restaurant

then in the afternoon bout 4 something we went to high tea haha.but the place is kinda old .my mom said ,the place started selling  'ais kacang,laksa ,rojak and leh hu bao 鲤鱼包'since 20 something years ago ..full of history huh haha.i dont know how to describe the placebut if u are from alor star u will prpbably know.its located near the OLD pizza hut and 江夏堂

here 's the place

rojak and ice kacang

leh hu bao 鲤鱼包

ok ,thats all.

if you guys want me to post more blog posts bout food finding journey or you want to knw bout my diet plan ,do tell me .INDIAN cuisine perhaps?? ^^

选科

毕业了，很多朋友都到外地读书，有的则忙着工作。我呢，赖在家里，像只懒虫。
看着大家都那么忙，心里很不安。不知道为什么，我是个很消极的女生，总是觉得自己会失去些什么。消极的想法，我知道；太情绪化，我懂。我这种态度，应该很烦人吧。

其实我也想读书，但妈妈说，先等成绩吧。起初我很不爽，为什么连这个妈妈都要干涉。但冷静后又想了想，如果当初冲冲忙忙就念书，我会不会因为选科而又后悔呢？有时候，大人的洞察力比我们好，他们看惯了社会，想法自然更好。或许，听妈妈的话，不完全属错的。

本来我很想拿大众传播这科，但是向老师咨询和征求家人意见后，他们都不是很赞成。他们说，或许你是学校其中一个能言善辩的主持人等，但是一山还有一山高，外面比你好一千倍的大有人在。而且，很多时候大众传播靠的是运气。再者，很多著名主播都不是大众传播出来的。所以，不是让你完全放弃你的梦想，只是现在暂时搁置。当今社会是现实的，虽然经验重要，但没有一纸文凭，也什么都干不了。

回头，我想了又想，依然拿不定主意。有位情同手足的学姐说过：有兴趣的不一定能当饭吃，但是现在没有兴趣的，大可慢慢培养。有位教育工作者也曾在aiFM空中分享过：你应该网多方面思考。如果你从事你有兴趣的科目，你未来的路要怎么走，这条路会怎么样；如果你往另外一条路走，这条路又会怎么样。其实人生没有捷径，靠的，使我们实实在在的「努力」，当然还有「运气」。

后来，当我决定选择「法律」，又有人问我，法律很难读，你真的确定你要的是法律吗？你可以吗？你画画那么行，为什么不要选择设计或者是architect呢？
我想说，我不想冒险，当下我应该选择一个稳扎稳打的科系，至少拿到文凭，之后的事，又有谁可以预测？或者我可以转行做电视主持人，或者我会从事一些设计工作，又或者......这些事没人说得准。当下，我选择了这条路，就要走下去。朋友说得对，太在以别人的目光和看法，只会做有你的想法。

所以，一起挺下去吧。
还有，朋友们，不要忘了友情需要灌溉，要时常联系哦。

日落 sunset •••• ••••

昨天到吉打港口那里看日落。是第一次看的日落吧。本来毫无兴趣，却被海上那一美景慑住了。

有人说，日出🌄是等待英雄豪杰的诞生，而日落🌅则是默默看着英雄伟人的陨落。对很多人来说，日出之美逾越日落。我没有欣赏过日出，不知道它是否如别人所言那样令人惊心动魄，但是日落之美，却像是无形的弦，紧紧牵引着我。

等待日落的时间比日落时长。太阳下山只有那几秒钟，或者说，不到一分钟的时间。但是它却那么的美。英雄伟人不也一样吗？风光一时，却也陨落的快。看着那像蛋黄一样的太阳渐渐掉落地平线，突然唏嘘，感叹自己有多么渺小。

总是在乎别人对自己的评价，总是在乎自己做的够不够好，总是担心这个担心那个，其实只是把自己弄得身心疲累。日落给人的感觉是，那些弄得你心烦意乱的东西只不过是生命的程序，每个人都会经历，你把它们看得淡一些，自己自然快乐，因为当有一天你香消玉殒时，自然会被淡忘。人走茶凉，是现实。
夕阳无限好，只是近黄昏。

同样的，日出带给人的讯息是，没有永远。「永远」这字，读起来简单，但要彻底领悟却是一生都学不完的课。因为没有永远，所以我们要时常维持彼此的关系，时常想起对方，时常联系，这样彼此的快乐才能延续。

就像书上说的一样，你不必到所谓的著名旅游胜地看日出，自己家乡的日出，可以是最美的。最重要的是，你要把心掏空，用颗空荡荡的心欣赏太阳殒落的时刻。

你会发现，生活其实很美好，快乐其实很简单。