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Monday, April 1, 2013

first day at IICP

     If you ask me about how was my first day at IICP ,i would have said ,it had nothing special yet i  felt so pressure .

     I mean,i dint really feel nervous or scared this morning although it was my first time for my college life .I guess Maybe because i had my housemate with me and i always quite brave when there is someone to accompany me .i hate to be alone when everything is at first time.I bet all of you feel so .When it is your first time at school or at any situation or occasion which  you dont know anybody ,woah its soooooo scary !And i dont know why ,since little ,i always did siasui things when it came to be my very first time .ETC.couldnt speak fluently in whatever language especially english ><....lol.I really hated myself at that moment .i felt so inferior and wanted to cry !But when things go on better and better ,i like to be alone again .i mean sometimes la .lol .very weird i know but somehow i enjoy th time because i can do many things in spite of staying in a group .

      I can still remember the first time i stepped into every single tuition class ,i felt everyone's eyes were on me .i know they were not looking at me but i just ...And my sight just went blur totally .i couldnt even find my friend although she was maybe,um maybe just sitting  a stone throw away.Ridiculour right ?i was so scared and timid ,i dont know why .I know its very different from the image i showed on stage when i was the emcee of an event or when i was a debator .i know its way too funny but i want to say,stage gives me the courage and mike gives me the power to stand out and SPEAK!

      Ok now my previous life is over and now I am starting afresh in IICP .Being one of the freshmen ,i can tell you ,i am NOTHING here.I mean everyone is excellent !plus there are many pro-ka from top schools around Penang like Penang Chinese Girls' Private High School 槟城槟华女子独立中学,Chung Ling (Private) High School, Penang 钟灵独立中学,and of couse many else .I wasnt a top student in my previous school ,so can you imagine being in college?HAHA .MAybe in IICP its just counted as minor part .In KL or other states or maybe other countries ....WOAH .I am not  emo ,just i am telling you guys the fact .What i want to emphasize is that its very important for all of us to keep fighting even we are now over the stupid SPM .If you are a top student in your school ,still ,dont be over confident .Keep working on what you should do .BE humble but at the same time dont lose confidence when you see so many people better than you .Everything is possible .MAybe you will be the next to SHINE.who knows,right?So ,just try our best .BUt at first ,if you dont have gifted IQ like some people,then better dont be LAZY.Seriously,DONT.Of course i am not asking you to study all day and all night like kisiao but try to adjust study and leisure time .STEADY LA!(taken from AH BOYS TO MEN 1&2)haha.

     About the classes ...ok ,i have to say ,its really packed .i have classes from 8-4 or 5 or 6 pm almost everyday .I dont know i can tahan or not but there is no turning back so the only choice left now is to KEEP FIGHTING lol.Studying in college  is not like studying in secondary school.Like me ,its very lucky that i now studying in Penang .I can go home on friday and saturday .But still its not so convenient because home is the best place for me to really focus on my studies and also to rest .But i do understand i have to face the life challenges alone so i have to grow up and leave home!I am not the mummy-girl ok?haha .Seriuosly ,parents ,you have to teach your children to be independent since they are little .Or not if they end up like mummy-girls or mummy-boys,oh gosh its soo annoying .Please la ,grow up !

       And after going moldy at home for several months ,ahahaha i feel so sorry to all teachers especially ah kang and ah yong because i have 80% forgotten the formulaes bla bla taught by you all .I am such a 'beh ki' student right?just joking .I know many of you also throw the books ah notes ah as well as your brains away already .i am very confirm .oh damn ,i remember i have to do malaysian studies .what a bullshit subject .SEJARAH again what the hell .

         Ok i know i am talking too much .HAve to continue my homework and later must try to find some info for my juniors .They are having debate comp again.God bless al of us !

       DOnt give up ya .love .