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Thursday, August 14, 2014

The fault in our stars

“He responded a few minutes later.


I wrote back.


He responded:

Oh, my God, stop flirting with me!” 
― Tfios

So ,I watched it ,which I thought I would never pay my money for this kind of love movie .

So ,I cried ,which was kind of usual because I cry easily . 

---The Fault In Our Stars ---
I read the book before I went to watch it .I basicAlly think that the movie is somehow better than the book .I am not saying that the book is rotten to the core ,it's amazing,to be honest .The way John Green describes the characters ,how he plays with the storyline ,they are all fabulous .However I still think that something is missing ,something that I can't really find it when I read the book .

I used to imagine a lot when I read .This book makes me fall in love with John's literally talent .I love the Amsterdam,the restaurant by the lakeside ,Anne Frank's house ...I mean John can bring us into the story ,like we are really traveling with Hazel and Augustus and feeling like them .Awwww ...John Green is just awesome ,isn't him ? 
      The other reason I love this book and the movie is because of Hazel's parents .The family does not tear apart even when they are in their darkest time ,unlike other books I read .As an example :Golden Boy (a must read boon !!!!!) I really love the way John portraits the parents .I can feel their love towards Hazel ,and they don't give up .They just don't .Its suffering when your loved ones diagnosed with cancer or any incurred disease .But they manage to deal with it ,although it's tough and that means they do not have normal life anymore .
       But there is something that I can't picture and bring myself into it .Thats the love story between Hazel and Augustus .Of course John Green does a good job in writing the love story of them but mayb I m too young and don't have experience so I can't really feel it .i think that's it's ridiculous that you are closed to death and you meet someone and just boom ...Fall in love like that .Okay .For me it's just like impossible .You barely know a person and you can't just love him or her like that isn't it ? So ,tell me ,do you guys agree with it ? Agree that there is love at first sight ?

   The reason   I think movie is better than the book is that the love story of Hazel and Augustus finally not portraited in words but in tableau ,which I can understand more .Hahahha .Okay don't laugh at me .There has to be someone that Is not experienced in love stuffs right ? :D Teehee .Its quite disappointing that there is no restaurant by the lakeside but the restaurant in the movie is just beautiful as well . What I really don't understand is why do they love champagne so much .Is it so nice ? Or because they are in love so everything tastes like heaven ? 
       Shailene Woodly and Ansel Elgort have good chemistry .I was worried that they would look so weird in this movie after I had watched them acting as siblings in DIVERGENT .But it turned out to be just so fine .I was totally into them and forgot about Divergent . But I guess I would never watchDivergent series again because I am a very obstinate people .Once I set my mind that they are meant to be couple ,I just can't accept that they are not together in another movie .hahahhah ok I know I m funny .Ignore me ! 

    There is another one I like in this movie.The scene where Hazel ,Augustus and lidewij at Anne Frank's house .Hazel is determined .She managed to climb all the stairs up  to the top of the house even though she would not have to .She is a strong person ,the one I would never be .

     I started to cry when Hazel and her parents were arguing at the dining room .And she said " You are not a mother anymore after I die !" Mrs Lancaster was crying and she replied that even when HaZel was gone ,she would always their daughter and she would alwaysbe  remembered . I cried when Isaac was giving eulogy at Augustus's pre-funeral . 
He said " I dislike living in a world  without Augustus Waters ." 
He is kind of handsome

So painful that I could not hold on my tears .

I expected more from the funeral scene .So I was a teeny disappointed that the movie did not really picture it well like the book .So I will give the credit to the book in this part .And I was really crying when Hazel read the letter written by Augustus . 

  Here's the final part of the last letter :

Van Houten,

I’m a good person but a shitty writer. You’re a shitty person but a good writer. We’d make a good team. I don’t want to ask you any
favors, but if you have time—and from what I saw, you have plenty—I was wondering if you could write a eulogy for Hazel. I’ve got
notes and everything, but if you could just make it into a coherent whole or whatever? Or even just tell me what I should say differently. 
 Here’s the thing about Hazel: Almost everyone is obsessed with leaving a mark upon the world. Bequeathing a legacy. Outlasting death.
We all want to be remembered. I do, too. That’s what bothers me most, is being another unremembered casualty in the ancient and
inglorious war against disease.

I want to leave a mark.

But Van Houten: The marks humans leave are too often scars. You build a hideous minimall or start a coup or try to become a rock star
and you think, “They’ll remember me now,” but (a) they don’t remember you, and (b) all you leave behind are more scars. Your coup
becomes a dictatorship. Your minimall becomes a lesion.

(Okay, maybe I’m not such a shitty writer. But I can’t pull my ideas together, Van Houten. My thoughts are stars I can’t fathom into

We are like a bunch of dogs squirting on fire hydrants. We poison the groundwater with our toxic piss, marking everything MINE in a
ridiculous attempt to survive our deaths. I can’t stop pissing on fire hydrants. I know it’s silly and useless—epically useless in my current
state—but I am an animal like any other.
 Hazel is different. She walks lightly, old man. She walks lightly upon the earth. Hazel knows the truth: We’re as likely to hurt the universe
as we are to help it, and we’re not likely to do either.
 People will say it’s sad that she leaves a lesser scar, that fewer remember her, that she was loved deeply but not widely. But it’s not sad,
Van Houten. It’s triumphant. It’s heroic. Isn’t that the real heroism? Like the doctors say: First, do no harm.

The real heroes anyway aren’t the people doing things; the real heroes are the people NOTICING things, paying attention. The guy who
invented the smallpox vaccine didn’t actually invent anything. He just noticed that people with cowpox didn’t get smallpox. 
 After my PET scan lit up, I snuck into the ICU and saw her while she was unconscious. I just walked in behind a nurse with a badge and I
got to sit next to her for like ten minutes before I got caught. I really thought she was going to die before I could tell her that I was going
to die, too. It was brutal: the incessant mechanized haranguing of intensive care. She had this dark cancer water dripping out of her
chest. Eyes closed. Intubated. But her hand was still her hand, still warm and the nails painted this almost black dark blue and I just held
her hand and tried to imagine the world without us and for about one second I was a good enough person to hope she died so she
would never know that I was going, too. But then I wanted more time so we could fall in love. I got my wish, I suppose. I left my scar.

A nurse guy came in and told me I had to leave, that visitors weren’t allowed, and I asked if she was doing okay, and the guy said, “She’s
still taking on water.” A desert blessing, an ocean curse.

What else? She is so beautiful. You don’t get tired of looking at her. You never worry if she is smarter than you: You know she is. She is
funny without ever being mean. I love her. I am so lucky to love her, Van Houten. You don’t get to choose if you get hurt in this world,
old man, but you do have some say in who hurts you. I like my choices. I hope she likes hers.

I do, Augustus.
I do.

     Love some of the quotes in the book/movie . 

"Okay?okay.Maybe okay will be our always "--Gus (Top 1)

"You never worry if  she is smarter than you .You know  she is "--Gus 

"its a metephor, see: you put the killing thing right between your teeth but you dont give it the power to do its killing.”--Gus (He is just so cool !)

"If you want the rainbow you have to deal with the rain"

"You gave me a forever within the numbered days, and I'm grateful."--Hazel 

Monday, August 4, 2014


















My mom is beautiful when she doesn't get angry :) oh wait papa doesn't take photo with me I just have his old photo TT 

Starting to love cats :) 




Baby jack-Li my 小弟弟 

Love-hate relationship with my brother Jason ;) awwwww how cute 
My sherlene and her friend are shaking hands? Hehe
All my baby bears :) 

With all my loved ones :) 

Wednesday, February 19, 2014

19th birthday

Haven't blogged for a long time .How are you guys ? 

I just passed my 19th birthday .Yes .I am 19 now .Next year ,no more 1 as the initial for me .I feel so old now .Owwww 

I received a lot of love ,as always .I am thankful for that .I think all of you have given me more than what I deserve .Its just can't be described using words .

My bitches ,They were not with me on my birthday .But their souls were with me .I received loves by them .i know they will always stand by me like no matter what .Shhh bitches .we talk inside the group ya :) you guys know I love u right ? .And my guys too .Haha oh yeah I wanna take this chance to wish my 1-day-earlier bro Kthyng happy birthday ! Love u like hell muacks !!!!  

Oh yeah .I received two calls from people I cherish .1 was from A and her sister and the other one was from TJY .It was really really warming .A was a friend I met on tuition .Not really friend but I din know since when we became like really good friends and we encouraged each other in our life .i really cherish her .Fate let us meet togetger and I always belive we gonna have a very long friendship and plus I m going to study in nilai so soon and yeahhhhh we will be living close enough ! And A' sis ,S ,I always heard from A about you .You are always our inspiration .You have courage ,you are strong ,you are beautiful ...I hope I can lead my future life like you .TJY ,thanks lovely ! It was so nice chatting with you .We might have different opinions in some little things , but it doesn't stop us from being good friends isn't it ? Haha .i really miss u u know :( 

I thought my birthday would pass like ordinary day .I did not expect much because I am afraid that expectation leads to disappointment .I am always like that ,Too rational ,until I become a mean person .People who don't know me would think that I am a very arrogant bitch but what to do ? This is my personality .I am cold to strangers,But once we get to know each other ,I m crazy and you probably will think ' why on earth has such crazy person' 

Back to birthday 
.I received many texts that day .I knew I should be grateful and I told myself 'its enough .No celebration is ok .its just a day ' but I actually felt so lonely ,particularly on that day .I thought I could survive alone ,but on that day I realized we people are supposed to live as groups ,loneliness kills . 

I was planning to get some sleep .And then my babe J asked me to wait for her .She had sad things to tell me .Ok .i waited ,with my eyes half closed .And on strike 12am which was already the 17th feb ,she reached my door side with the other girls and they sang HB song to me .I really so gandong .And that time I really happy .like really really happy .It was really enough for me .J texted me a long message .Owww .And she gave me something that I wanted .it was given on Valentines Day .So should I say its my first valentines gift ? Haha .Thanks.You shouldn't have wasted so much money .

Oh well ,T lied to me on my bd.She said she couldn't get inti hostel as she forgt to bring keys ! I was so worried bout her but shit the rapid .I waited for nearly 1 hour to get back to hostel .Then she came to my hostel ,and we talked.When I went to bathe she put sunflowers (my favourite) on my desk .and she helped me choose a dress,saying that I just wore it once and I should wear more often .She probably knew that I was a lazy person n I would just get it on on the next day haha! Owww I was so surprised by the flowers ! She so sweet ! 
Thanks lovely ! 

On 17th feb ,I gt up like usual ,struggling whether I should go to biology class or not .Ok I am lazy (shh) .At last I did go ,But with sleepy body owwwwww:( It was like usual day ,We half slept in the class while listening to lecture .My sweet Kirthi,she gave me a small version hello kitty owwww .M I as cute as her ? I love it too much and I gonna put it in my display cupboard n take pic.Wait me get home ! Thx babe ! I did not sense anything wrong .After class ,C said there was a place at 3rd floor so we just went there .OK .When I reach the cubicle I was so startled .there was a pink Victoria Secret plastic bag in front of me ,with the balloons and all of my gals ! I really so surprised 
My brain was blank that time .I barely remembered what I had said that time ,I was just so ....blank lol .I know people would say I like the gifts they gave me .But that time I actually forgt about the gift .I was overwhelmed by love .I was thinking " how will I be if I did not get to know them last time ?" 

I just can't describe my feelings with words .Dear my girls ,You know me ,So I won't say much .I m so grateful ,so so so grateful .Fate brings us together .Time brings us closer .We are going to separate soon .But I know ,somehow we will remember the days back  in IICP .I know sometimes I am mean ,but I just really love you all ,Mayb what I say is wrong but I do not mean so .Forgive me .I will try to be a better person . <3 

Lastly ,I want to say thank you to my mommy .She is the one that teaches me that I should be independent ,She is my mentor ,Like forever .Without her ,there is no me .No one is perfect .Sometimes we argue but end up I know she loves me unconditionally .She is my best friend .She knows me .My daddy ,I love u too .I know u love me like I am yr princess.You fulfill my wishes ,You pamper me which no other guy will do.And to my two brothers ,I miss u guys so much .I really love you two ! Do u miss me ? Hehe