My mom is a typical mother :loves to nag,worries a lot ...bla bla.Chinese says,天下的妈妈都是一样的which means all mothers are same .Agree? Haha .They are somehow connected ,I mean they are protective .But for us ,we might think that they shouldn't be so but actually ,they are always correct (not always,but...most time ^^)
When I was little,I always hoped to grow up faster so that I can get out from da house and live my life.Freedom .Oh yeah we all dreamed so right? I hated my mom when I was little.She was so mean to me.I mean,I was just a child ,but she liked to force me to do things I hate .She scolded me often n she forced me to study until midnight when I was just in kindergarten .Walao ,I was so sleepy but I couldn't even shift my eyes from books.pity me.And when I went to art class,I always cried because the teacher was scary (sorry mrs foo.i love u la ) I always end up being scolded by the teacher ...TT then I told my mom " I dwn to go anymore." But ...no matter how hard I cried ,I still needed to go .
I guess I told you guys before .My mom tore my maths paper into pieces when I was in standard 2/3 because I got 60 marks .Even now when I think of it ,I still feel that my mom so so so so bloodcurdling .I glued them up one by one ,crying with cane marks all over my arms .But from that time on ,I never ever got 80 marks below .i mean until form 3 la.When I got to form 4,I needed to face add maths .In th first exam ,I was totally in a blackout n I don't even know a single question.i went into the car n couldn't hold mytears.i thought my mom would scold me badly but she ended up telling me," Don't force yourself .You must try it slowly .Dont give yourself so much pressure.Try other time ." Yeah ,that's my mom .She treated me strictly when I was small but eventually let me grow up myself .i m so grateful to her .
I love my mom .Because of her ,I know I must be independent .She taught me to be.Last time I was counted as top student in my school.i always got no 1/2 in form .But then in f3,I don't know why ,my result dropped sharply till ranking 10/20++ which I forgot .I know it was just a small matter but for me,I mean the previous joey ,that time was suffering .tTeachers talked bout me in office,Friends discussed bout me al the way .I hate being discussed by people wtf.Mommy was the one who encouraged me ,n she told me " try your best" and now it becomes my inspiration everytime I do something.
My mom supports me in whatever things i do .when I went for debate competition ,I always not in the class n somehow it affected my results .But she said "I believe that u can do it.just go ." Thanks mom .i really grateful that you were by my side that time .And I managed to cover up my studies n at the same time enjoyed my secondary school life .
I still remember last time I used to curse my mom .i was bad ,I know.I made her cry yet I still dint want to apologize .I used to text her n scolded her ,asked her why treat me like that ,why other people' mommy so gud but she so mean .I m sorry mom .Now I really know I was so so wrong .Forgive me .Few months ago when we two had a heart-to-heart talk ,she told me the reasons why she so strict to me.she said," you are a girl .so I must train you to be independent .train you to be strong so that you can take care of yourself and the family when yr daddy n I not around.i planned it since I pregnant ,to train you .but you must know,I love u ." ...N I cried ,in my room after I went bac .
Now ,I m studying in Penang ,leaving my family behind .and I finally get what my mom means .Independent when there is no one for me to rely on .I finally know how much I love my family n how much I miss home .
Thank you mom.i love you . 
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